Walk On

I knew that coming to Oregon for a month would be easy. That I could leave my job, my friends, my family, my car, and just come up and be okay. I also knew that leaving and going back to San Diego would be really difficult. I'm trying to convince myself that I don't have to think about the future right now, but if I don't think about it now, when will I think about it? I can't put it off forever.

So, should I move up here? Well, if I get into a school up here the choice will be easy. My education is very important to me. I need to go where I can so I can start my career. But then I start thinking about if I even want to apply to schools up here. Or do I even need to? Why not just come up here for a few months and then start applying to schools?

Sometimes I try to figure out what's holding me back from just going to San Diego, packing up my stuff, and coming back to Oregon. Right now, I think it is a few things. I'm not ready to say goodbye to the beautiful location, that's for sure. I'll miss my family and friends terribly. I hate moving. I love my job. I'm in school down there. Oh, and then there was someone who came into my life so suddenly and so forcefully that I'm still surprised at the impact this person has had on my decision.

I guess sometimes all you can do is keep putting one foot in front of the other.